im crazy.

im beginning to think im more and more of a workaholic.

mon-thurs 9am-5pm.
tues 6pm-11.30pm
fri 9-5pm, 6pm-11.30pm.
sat 6.30am-2pm
sun 10-4pm

i think i'll live few years shorter if this continues.

end of my holidays

so i have been busy working day and night shifts, shuffling through home sahara and mac. work at mac is okay, except it gets really busy in the lunch hours. and then it quiets down at 2+. people are friendly there, with lots of malaysians there, so its a good thing we can speak chinese RIGHT in front of them without them understanding what we are saying about them! haha!

starting work on monday at Infor, a IT solutions company in west perth, which means i have to change bus in city to get there. and it isn't a very nice thing to wake up at 7am feeling cold and travelling by bus when its so cold. and then i leave work for home, again when its so cold. argh.

its been getting colder n colder now, it rained hails juz a few hours ago and i saw TWO rainbows! 2 okay! how often do we see a rainbow, and TWO rainbow at a time?

so im probably bloody shagged out after work everyday, on top of that, i have sahara to work at night and mac on weekends. oh gosh. the start of a new chapter in my life? den again, when i earn alot, i spend alot too. i actually bought the entire original series of sims 2.

another chapter in life

un-officially done with uni, and got myself a month of work experience with an IT solutions company in west perth as a test analyst. how much do i earn? zero. its mutually benefitting where i want and need the experience, while they need the people to test their products. while my mum wasn't exactly too happy that they aren't paying a single cent, i was, coz i wouldnt get a chance to work in an IT company competing against the other smarter ones rite?

furthermore, its only a month job. decided to work there for 4 days, while working my ass off at mac on fri and sat nites. at the same time, working dinner shift at sahara. in short, im going to be busy busy busy.

i've been scheduled to work next week at mac, on mon wed fri and sun. 20 hours and 30 mins in total. multiply that by 16.50 and i'll be getting near 350 a week, multiply by another 4 equals to near 1200! the best part i love about mac is that i'm getting paid every single minute. even if i come early or leave later, i am still paid! so, i'll try my best to go in as early as possible and stick around until i have to go..

the only concern i have is that i'll probably have to give up my sleep-as-long-as-possible sleeping hours.

i'm on my way to growing up!

choices

a month ago, i decided on going back to spore in july. a month later, i have 2 jobs on hand, 5 interviews for a test analyst and admin jobs. i am really spoilt for choices. the thing is? i dont wanna give up any of my waitress-ing jobs. why? becoz im paid 15 and 16.50 per hour? between sahara and mac, i know i have to give up mac becoz i have to take a bus there or rely on henry to send me there while sahara is just some 1 min walk away from home. of coz, mac is a worldwide known fast food while sahara is just a 3 week old singaporean malay-indian restaurant in the suburbs. its really hard to choose between them, since the test analyst or admin job will take up the usual working hours, so i can only choose between sahara or mac for my weekends.

gosh. im troubled when i dont have a job, im troubled when i have jobs too.

i went for mac's orientation program earlier on, collected a big sized uniform and a very baggy pants. best part - im paid for orientation! haha. people there are ultra friendly, although it was mostly angmohs today, but there are alot of asians there too on friday/saturday nights.

argh.

the last paper

software engineering 351 totally sucked big time today. the unexpected questions were in the form of 10marks and 16marks. oh god.

when i thought i could do well for this exam, going in rather confidently since i understood everything n memorized definitions.

anyway, been hanging out at the library or com sci building. talking about which, i slipped n fell off the stairs in com sci last friday evening. somehow i felt it was dark to see the next step, and told henry its so dark, and before i knew it i slipped. damm. thank god no one was around to witness that fall and a whining me.

all i had was tiger balm n some really hot menthol sticker pad for muscle aches which surprisingly worked! at least i can twist my feet to make a full circle today!

i started work at sahara restaurant last friday sat n sunday during lunch hours 11.30-2.30pm. lunch there isn't very busy as compared to dinner time, all i have to do is to say HI when someone comes in, take their orders, send the order slip to the kitchen, serve and the lady boss does the cashiering most of the time. Sahara is a malay-indian restaurant that actually provides sheesha for just $15! Opened by a singaporean family of singhs, even the chef was flown in from spore 3 wks ago! haha, they are all pretty nice people!

not sure about the salary though, but what i heard from friends is that singaporeans indians are rather stingy about the pay, so im probably expecting $7 or $8 per hour? anyway, i've been having calls regarding temp jobs i've applied for, so i wont be staying long in sahara. it was good to have some waitressing experience although i kinda hate it after the first day, but i get free food when i work there!

okay, so.....friday will be my last paper for uni! feel kinda... she bu de...cant bear to leave curtin.

7th dream

another dream! this time, it was just me mabel and joy and... steven. no idea why he was there, but he juz popped up out of nowhere with his sports car helping me to chase mabel n joy.

scene looked really eerie, with some signboards saying some ghostly stuffs i forgot what, but anyway, mabel n joy entered it, so steven juz appeared and we were following them. surprisingly, mabel n joy went in for the hawker centre n the cheap stuffs! it look as if it was some kind of border near malaysia, so there were alot of shops selling handicrafts/joss sticks stuffs and den i was asking mabel how much does it cost to fix my earrings! few days ago, the beads of my earrings came off, but i got it fixed back. and in the dream i actually asked mabel how much to fix it!?!?

mabel n joy seemed to be always in my dreams. 7, to be precise. i have never never never dreamt this much in spore!

and.....天真的给了我一些暗示，虽然不是很明确的暗示，但还是暗示！

random pictures from all over perth

steven's place for claypot!!!

steven's chicken & mushroom, henry's viet prawn rolls

chris's pakinstany curry and my mongolian beehoon?

shanghai wanton soup

my chilli pepper chicken

his fried intestines

i realli pei fu the kids here who dares to writes all these nonsense on test papers!
a question about volcano, so this dude drew a volcano erupting. (HAHA!)

my chicken rice cooked from scratch

he said its so cheap and he wants to buy it(?!?!)

the FIRST time i see him looking at the catalogue

9 burswood gardens, victoria park

hah! i think its more for decoration

their pathetic gym

the main entrance

the view from 5th floor

teh terik... for 4 bucks.

my nasi lemak! best nasi lemak in perth so far

they look so happy :)

ok, one of jarrad's drunk fren brought it up

a row of surfer shorts for 20 bucks each!

the female section

another shirt that i liked!

30 bucks :(

pardon my 'just wake up' look

I LIKE NY?

the black off shoulder i liked the moment i saw it
but its 35 bucks :(

happily listening to my lecture audio

on our way to the korean shop to get korean curry powder!

the silly boy and his 22 million draw

i never fail to take pictures whenever i study

spencer's village asian food court

chicken n mushroom claypot was really nice!

my chilli pepper chicken

roast duck, chicken and roast pork!

some fat guy in BP

he likes milk

i found elmo lying there naturally

选择

人，总是在烦着人身当中的选择。我，也被“选择”烦了好久。

还记得2005年头，我做了人身最大的选择-就是出国读书。两年后，我不但没嫌弃身活很闷，我反而习惯这里的身活。现在，我的选择将会影响我的未来。

我不想回家，但又会想家。我要在这里工作，但工作一个也找不倒。

第一：回家。
第二：继续留在这里找工。

其实，我的答案是第二，可是我也不能在这里一至找工。钱和时间的问题吧。

我不想因为我的选择又失去“他”。

好烦好烦。

天啊，给我一些暗示好吗？

6th dream?

gosh. i woke up thanks to someone knocking at my door while i was happily in dreamland. yep, my family again. this time we had a new kitten and a dog! the weirdest thing was that i had classes at 10.30pm in my dream, and i was always running to classes in singapore alleys but with perth's trees and flowers. *rolls eyes*

i stopped the dreaming since i was busy with my SE test last week, but today? i guess it has something to do with the call i made to home last nite. and mum is okay with me staying here till sept! yay! i wanted to go home in august too lah, since everyone here would be busy with school to accompany me, but she said it would be wasting money to fly up n down.

so....... i still need a job. until october. but........macdonald's hasn't called me.... :(

nameless entry

busy with my software engineering test the past week, and another test this coming tues, after which would be the study week and exams! my last 2 exams of my life(no more studying for me!) which also means my last months here in perth!

since i made up my decision in going back, i haven been dreaming! neither do i have much problem sleeping(the studying did take up alot of energy). and i have been picturing myself back at home playing with my dog, staying in my study room or watching korean dramas on my bigggg bed. and of coz, eating $3 hawker food.

i tried the $3.80 chicken rice here yesterday, of which i had my first with my mum when she was here, and it was horrible. i named it as dog food these 2 years. after the major renovation the small shopping centre had, i was tempted to try the chicken rice again after seeing their authentic-lookalike chicken rice on their boards! i had char siew and chicken, which i actually found char siew having skin on it? and the rice was plain horrible. henry said it was nice, wei ling eats it almost every day. i have no comments. as i ate, i was picturing 5 star chicken rice, so haha, in a way, was eating a 'dreamed' version of it.

oh yes! the entire erica had a black out on friday night! think it was 12+ am, and i was sort of forced to sleep early..the electricity came back only at 3am! secretly, me and henry thinks it was becoz of our blender, he was blending a orangle slushie for me when it turned black while i was washing the dishes! our first thought was just our flat alone, but seconds later, mq came out and we checked that the switches are all on and i noticed it was very dark outside! so we were playing with the lighter and torch with the other flats and we concluded to sleep.

had korean bbq that night too, which i was rather unsatisfied with, becoz i didnt get to eat enough! henry felt the same too, so we decided to go again another time, just both of us this time round becoz we were busy entertaining roland and kenneth. i baked him a cookie n cream ice cream cake last evening, which the top layer broke into 3 after the frosting and the happy birthday icing! damm! but anyway he said it was nice - which was good enough to know. he said my idea was nice, so he's going to bake me a chocolate ice cream cake on my birthday, just that mine will be more chocolatey and with ice cream everywhere.

not exactly looking forward to my birthday, not becoz of the digits, but becoz i probably would be going home on 20 something august, after my birthday. i haven told my mum about my decision yet, but im not sure if i should fly back in sept for my graduation. i dont exactly like the idea of taking pictures in swissotel, although i have family with me. i prefer the background to be curtin and with friends... talking of which, i dont have any pictures with my com sci friends!

gotta go to BP soon, coz my dear henry is hungry for fish n chips. i hate going to the fish n chips opposite BP coz 3 times, they dont understand me. FRIES = rice? FORK = sorry and a big question mark? so this time, henry will call them to order, and i will bring my own fork!

a silent decision

i guess its probably a wiser decision to head back home and work instead of crying and lamenting at the number of calls i get. 2, to be specific.

attended a ibm talk earlier on, where i sort of decided. the benefits the salary the environment here is undoubtly one of the best, given the amount of awards they have and their flexibility. i love that. coming to work between 8-10am, leaving before 5pm. if you need to fetch ur kids, go ahead. if you have finished your day's work at 12pm, feel free to go. if you don't feel like coming to work, then work at home! if you think you are not growing in your career path in this department, you are more than welcome to change departments or teams. isn't that really awesome? on top of that, they have regular seminars and whatnots to keep you updated and making you going nearer to your career objective.

but at the end of the day, i know such a good deal will never land on me. so i should really be contented with what i have now and get my ass back to singapore! during the talk, i was thinking in my mind, perhaps i might be able to qualify to work in s'pore ibm, and just forget about the working-in-aussie-like-every-asian-wants-to thing.

i get to hug my dog everyday, and watch my chinese shows. i really should stop whining.

dreams

its family again. 4th dream - and family again is part of it. i cant really recall, but alots of friends were inside too.. its so weird. the dreams seem to be telling me something.. that i shouldnt stay. and to match that, i havent got the call from amf nor westnet! the 2 with my highest pinned hopes.

on the other hand, juwita is going home in june.. who currently holds 2 jobs, dome and westnet. people keep telling me to wait and have faith, but i still get nothing after months!

what's wrong with me? what's wrong with my resume? what's wrong with the companies here?

i want to stay, i want a job, i want PR!

hate myself.

i need answers

i feel lost.

not sure if i should spend 3K on a PR.

or should i go home and get a job?

or to stay here?

but things dont always go my way.

have i been forgotten?

weird dreams?

Seeing your friends in your dream means aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to integrate these rejected part of yourself. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Additionally, this symbol foretells of happy tidings from them and the arrival of good news. Seeing your childhood friend in your dream means regression into your past where you had no responsibilities and things were much simpler and carefree. You may be wanting to escape the the pressures and stresses of adulthood. Consider the relationship you had with this friend and the lessons that were learned. Alternatively, the childhood friend may be suggesting that you have been acting in a childish manner and you need to start acting like an adult.

for the 3rd time consecutively, i dreamt of the same people! different places, but today's was exceptionally weird and shocking. family members again, but with lok hang in it for the 2nd time! we were walkin down this overhead bridge stairs(which looked exactly like parkway's, there isnt any overhead bridge here in the first place), my family were very front while lok hang was just a step away from me and i felt someone touching my butt! i turned and i saw this rather big sized malay guy with a belly! and i just took a painted (i tink it was blue) wooden plank to hit him until he was lying on the floor.. (didnt noe i had that kind of strength) and... the most shocking of all ... lok hang took out a bloody sanitary pad from MY bag trying to open it up to put on the guy's face! i followed and its amazing how there was another bloody pad in my bag, while i was tryin to open it, i woke up.

damm.

and den in the middle of the dream, very unrelatedly, joy was missing from the group and we went lookin for her, shoutin her name, only to find her in the toilet. *rolls eyes*

and for my 2nd dream yesterday, i actually dreamt my family were playing hide and seek in the carpark!?!? mabel actually took the short cut to somewhere else, while joy followed later. i went with the car and den i woke up!


wth?

the waiting game

its stupid how we have to wait for everything in life.. for food, atm, movies, carparks, sometimes for the right guy and for me, i have been in the waiting queue since march. mabel on the other hand, is queing to enter uni! at the end of the day, which is the time i get depressed and cry most of the time, asking myself why i haven got a job, dreading saturdays becoz that's when i webcam with my mum and then that very question pops up - "so u still haven got a job?" argh.

its heartening to know how sweet henry can be sometimes. although he is a pain in the ass on other occasions as well. but yesterday while walking around in carousel, he spotted this 22 million lottery draw poster on 26th may which is also his birthday, and pestered me to get him a ticket. it ranges from 7+ to 13.90, of coz 13.90 being the one with more chances, i had to get him that. and he said if he wins a million out of it, we are going to slap our lecturers face and quit school, go for a holiday, buy a house car and give away money to frens. geez. if only.

oh! i saw joanna in carousel too! for that split second, i thought i was in spore, but another second later, i realised im in carousel! she's in murdoch uni, but that means another fren to hang out with! although i was close to her only for a while in broadrick. so unexpected to see her here in perth!

just another week.

mother's day but... my dear mum is happily enjoying herself in america. and she's getting me a souvenier from harvard uni! i figured, since a shirt would cost somewhere between U$S30-50, she would probably get me a key ring or a cap or a pen or a file, which would amount to be the cheapest and still says the word harvard uni. oh wells.

anyway, life's still the same, nothing much happened the past week, except that i got rejected in the interview for the admin/data entry job on tuesday. and being the cry baby me, i cried. in perth's CBD and in some carpark and in an indo cafe while trying to eat my kuey teow noodle. yep, i noe im freaking weak, but at rather desperate times like this, it just brings me down. well the only consoling part was that, she didnt reject me becoz i didnt qualify but becoz i wouldnt be able to commit to the job since she figured i would have a full time job after graduation.

a long day ahead

for some reason, i woke up at 7.10am only to find myself half wanting to pee and hungry. weird, but i think it was more of being hungry. i was hungry since i slept becoz henry was happily munching his doritos while watching my name is earl, when i was like 90% into the sleeping pill. yes yes, i take sleeping pills to aid my sleeping.. but the health conscious me takes half instead of one, else i'd be a walking zombie the whole day.

talking about food, henry said that we'll go for a buffet breakfast either at city or gosnell hotel since both are at $15. okay, so i hesistated for a few seconds whether or not to wake him up.. and den.. the first thing i said was "im hungry" he opened his eyes and den back to sleep. so i said " i have a headache" hee, and he opened his eyes again with a huh? he heated up one crossiant for me becoz he didnt want to leave his bed for the breakfast! damm! and i was disturbing him until 9am pestering him to get the stupid coin for me in mario brothers and to finish the tower level for me.

so here i am, drinking a pot of tea and watching meet the fockers. and, im being forced to wax a car for someone becoz i think i looked like a wax expert to him? so, its waxing, dinner at spencer's(definitely getting the black carrot cake this time!) and den bowling at amf! anyway, interview tmr for an office job and den applying for amf bowling again, this time with higher chances placed since i know nick..

just when everything seemed to turn dark on me, i saw a tiny weeny bit of light.. and i really hope to get the jobs!

mum's going to usa tmr, and i just read about the tornado in usa in straits times today! gosh! hope the tornado isnt at the places she's going to, and cant wait to see the harvard uni shirt she's buyin for me! she usually ain't this generous about clothings for me, but somehow she just asked if i wanted a US$30 for a shirt with Harvard on it, of coz i want la!

on another note, my bloody samsung camera refused to work since that nite at nicholson's! damm, i feel like throwing it against the wall.. i hated it the moment it died on me just becoz of the sand that caused it to jam in lancelin.. now back here no sand no tornado and it just doesn work!

singapore vs australia

when i was bathing earlier on after a 3 hour afternoon nap to freshen up, i had this crazy thought. haha, get married here, and start my new life! why not? im like 23 this year..legal age wat!

but hey look! all i need is a simple marriage ceremony to exchange rings, kisses and vows. maybe a simple dinner for relatives and friends. and then all we need is a house, a car, and i would need a job! and voila! life cant be any better.. well if i decide to marry and stay on here permanently, i will have kids much much earlier than my planned age of 27(you know, after having some savings for milk and diapers blah blah blah) coz aussie is a good place for families! i heard from someone who told me this, a parent complained to her kid's school becoz homework was taking her kid away from her. not to forget the fact that aussie kids sleep at 9pm.. so why not man! the only reason why kids were planned at 27 becoz raising a kid in spore hasn't got anything to do with the words poor and time. but its different here, becoz u knock off at 5pm everyday, and u get paid a bloody whole lot more den i would in spore doing the same thing. i saw an advert for a .NET developer paying 70K + super annuation(aussie version of CPF) 70K man. multiply that by a 1.25 and compare to what a .NET programmer would be paid in spore!

yeah, crazy thought but.. haha. a house, a car, a job wouldnt be of much problem. the only thing is that will i be able to live away from home permanently? oh, and den it hit my mind that with a thing called tiger airways, i can fly back home once a month!

but then when i realised this prospective husband-to-be of mine is still a year 1 student in uni, i cant help but shaff(i made up this word myself) this thought away. sigh. hate life.

going to join some volunteer groups with juwita, figured that would make my resume a whole lot nicer and at the same time, brushing up my angmoh-slang.

im still jobless

its kinda depressing that the three of us - me juwita and alli started looking for jobs at the start of the semester.. both of them got jobs not too long later.. while i was still freaking printing resumes and cover letters. perhaps i lack experience in the customer service line, but all i need is a chance to prove myself? i've probably sent out more den 10 resumes to dome, subway, kfc, blah blah blah and i dun get a single call? oh god, save me.

i haven been able to fall asleep becoz everyday i tell myself, im still jobless. even westnet didnt give me a chance for an interview with them.. i wonder why when i have relevant experience!

i dun exactly wanna go back to spore and start everything all over again.. especially when i have my own group of friends whom i really really enjoy their company.. i can probably imagine my spending most of my time at home, after work or during weekends in singapore. why would i wan to walk down orchard seeing couples happily strolling away when i can be happy here?

all i need is a PR and i'll be able to apply for the full time jobs.

the rice pictures

no idea why its called the rice for a clubbing event, but its organised by the spore students society and some chinese society in perth, so maybe the chinese thought since we eat rice, call it the rice? haha. im so lame.

see how happy people are when they are drunk?
my 2 sweeties
trying for a group picture but ended up with me n henry? ok slightly better but...2 faces were chopped off